Name: I usually go by Cruci (now shortened to Cru), though my IRL name is Sara.
Location: Currently residing in the UK.
Occupation: Freelance digital artist, mostly.
How did you find out about this community? (Specify usernames if you remember them.) My girlfriend, who goes by the name of Sai_Salamander here on Dreamwidth pimped this comm out to me.
1) List and expand upon your three best traits / strengths. (These should be personality-related, not physical.)
Empathetic: I tend to be able to understand others problems and support them, even if I haven't gone through exactly the same thing. Furthermore, I often feel compelled to try and make people happy, regardless of whether or not they've requested my support. On the other hand, I tend to dislike sympathy quite a bit and don't usually use it.
Generous: Even if it means putting others and others needs before myself. I'm pretty good with giving away things (both objective and regarding emotions) so as to help my friends and people I care about, in general. Sometimes that does mean I give things I can't afford to, but that doesn't really bother me most of the time. Because if someone I like is happy, that makes me pretty damn content as well.
Creative: Not only as an artist, I'm pretty good at deviating from a general path and seeking my own way of doing things, even if it's seems counter intuitive or just plain strange. This does mean that sometimes I do things that end up having disastrous results, still that's always a possibility and regardless of the fact experimentation is the only way I can see myself advancing with things in general.
2) List and expand upon your three worst traits / weaknesses.
Paranoid: Whether or not it is justified, when something (at all, even, say, when the most harmless of comments is directed at me) my mind tends to jump straight out to the worst conclusion possible and come up with a way of twisting things to a point that my thoughts are barely recognizable as the truth any more. But I still end up obsessing over them, though.
Indecisive: If I had to rank these, this would come up first. It's possibly one of my worst traits and one which I have a great deal of trouble with. It goes in hand with being empathetic, which tends to cloud my judgement for decisions. To be quite honest, I can't seem to decide on anything. Whether tiny meaningless things or big life-changing events. Deciding is definitely not for me and even with outside support I'm still downright terrible at it. Even something simple as writing this application and trying to figure out which traits I posses is starting to make me unhappy because... nngh, deciding.
Controlled: A great part of being me means keeping nearly all of my thoughts and feelings under tight wraps. It's definitely conscious although not something I want to do. For me, it's extremely difficult to tell others about myself and I don't even know why. Even simple, meaningless thoughts as my opinion on a show/game/whatever. Unless I am extremely comfortable with someone I'd say that it's unlikely they'll know me at all, because of just how stupidly self-contained and controlled I tend to be.
3) Rate yourself on the following traits by putting an 'X' in the box you think fits best. (E.g. if you are slightly more introverted than extroverted, put an 'X' in the second box.) Explain your choice as well.
Introverted [ ] [X] [ ] [ ] [ ] Extroverted
Explain: Considering the last couple years and how I've been nothing short of an hermit, I'd say that I'm definitely on the introverted side, albeit not so much that I don't enjoy human interaction every now and then. Going out/interacting with large groups tires me out and I'm more likely to be the one sulking in the corner rather than someone actively engaging in conversation.
Cheerful [ ] [ ] [X]  [ ] Gloomy
Explain: I am somewhere in between, I'd guess. There are times when I'm more cheerful (especially when I'm relaxed and doing something I enjoy in the company of someone I enjoy) and times when the opposite is equally true. In general I do tend to sway onto the negative side, but only ever so slightly (when I'm on a normal frame of mind, that is).
Reserved [X] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] Impulsive
Explain: As I've mentioned before, I tend to keep mostly to myself. This is true at nearly all times except when it comes to the rare occasion when I have spare cash, which does sometimes end with some not so rational buying of nice things I want.
Energetic [ ] [ ] [ ] [X] [ ] Calm
Explain: I'm mostly calm even through difficult situations, and tend to prefer a peaceful setting. On the other hand, I do tend to get excited about music and games (especially) every once in a while.
Logical/Thinking [ ] [X] [ ] [ ] [ ] Emotional/Feeling
Explain: See, this is complicated. Despite being highly emotional, being unable of actually letting my feelings out means that I rationalize a lot. I tend to over-think things to the point of absurdity and may still be thinking about a minor incident days after it's happened.
Grudge-holding [ ] [ ] [ ] [X] [ ] Forgiving
Explain: Though I can hold a relatively short term grudge to people who've done me (very) wrong, it does tend to fade away with time. An recent (ex) friend of mine did something that I consider pretty abominable, but even now, a few months later, I'd have to admit that I don't hold a grudge against her and find myself concerned for her well being, though we haven't spoken ever since.
4) Describe how you typically work in teams. Is it generally a good experience, or do you prefer working by yourself? Do you like to lead and make decisions or do you prefer to let others make decisions so that you can do the legwork? You may find it helpful to give an example of a team you worked on recently and how that went. To start with, I don't typically work in teams. Since I'm pretty unwilling to to do, to start with, people do tend not to want any team-work from me either. It works well. Teams, especially of the larger kind, tend to be messy; despite not being a particularly organized person myself, I'd still rather be able to work at my own pace, and find my own solutions for problems, rather than having go through everyone else and figure out a way of pleasing them all. Now, the part about making others in the team happy is not a problem as much as it is a completely unnecessary hassle, and one which I'd rather not go through more often than absolutely necessary (that is, when I'm somehow forced to work in a team).
5) Spider-Man Decision: If you had to choose between saving two dozen innocent children and saving your best friend/significant other/person closest to you, which would you pick and why? This is an extremely difficult question and one I just can not reply to. Any conclusions I might come to now would probably fly out of the window if this were actually happening in real life. As it stands I'll say that I'd need to be there to actually decide. Basically: I have no idea. Though I suspect I would go with saving the children, my selfish side might arise in the situation, I have no idea. None whatsoever.
6) Your friend has had their feelings hurt and comes to you for consolation. What do you do? Let's say, two days later they come to you again still upset over the same issue. What would you do in that case? Well, if that happened then I'd do my best to comfort them and offer them appropriate advice. Nice, fun activities might be involved if they were in the mood for it. Having hurt feelings is never fun and I care for my friends a whole lot, in general. In the case that they were still unhappy after a couple days and came back to me, I would do exactly the same thing as the first time. Truth be told I don't really understand why there'd be a different. Feelings don't tend to magically vanish or heal within days, at least so is my personal experience.
7) What interests/hobbies do you have? How do you like to spend your free time? Honestly, I thoroughly enjoy being insanely lazy. That is, waking up late, snoozing until I feel like my head will start aching if I lay down for another second. And then? Spending the whole day on the internet or playing video games is definitely the way to go. As far as interests go, I'm pretty into herpetology/reptiles and absolutely adore drawing/painting/art in general, though I'm not sure if that counts as an hobbie since I'm more of an (unemployed) professional. More vaguely, I also enjoy card games, such as magic, reading, music, and whatnot.
8) Describe one to three careers you would find ideal, with a little explanation of why it appeals to you. If I knew the answer to this question I'd probably have worked harder towards it. Art in general is something that has appealed to me for a very long time, illustration, specifically has been an area of it I've pretty much always been into. However, to say my dream career would be that of an illustration is probably a lie as I'd rather draw and paint at my own leisure rather than be constrained by deadlines and client's whims. It's still something I'm highly interested in, though. As such I'll have to say that my one ideal career would be that of a veterinary (or maybe just someone who works with animals in a daily base, but if I get to help them? Even better). I adore animals and they are the one thing that I just can't do without in my life.
9) List one to three favorite Final Fantasy games and why you like them. Sequels/spin-offs/non-numbered/KH/
Final Fantasy VIII: It was the first game of the series I ever came in contact with, originally owned by my uncle who played the heck out of it before lending me the disks. Unfortunately, the third CD was badly scratched and up to this date I have never got to finish the game. Still, the memories of facing those extremely high levelled t-rexes at one of the early areas is still burned in my mind.
Final Fantasy IX: Again, the first time I came in contact with this game was when I visited my sister's godparents. Since I didn't own a Psone back then, I used to go straight to play IX every time I was at their place. Though (again) I never got to finish the game, I have very fond memories of playing it, even though the final area kicked my younger-self's ass repetitively.
Final Fantasy XII: If this list was ranked, then this game would feature first. Why? Because it's my ultimate favourite Final Fantasy. Not only the intricate plot, which has more to do with politics than romance (something I really appreciate, despite my love of all things fluff) but the gameplay itself sold me to it the very first time I played. I just loved being able to explore the world and especially all the end-game content that is available.
10) List one to three of your favorite Final Fantasy characters and why:
Noah fon Rosenburg (aka Judge Magister Gabranth): At the risk of sounding like I'm woobifying him, I do feel like he got the brunt/worst of an already terrible situation and well, I don't think any of what he was to do throughout the game is easy for him, but he still goes through it. Brainwashed (and/or played) to a certain degree, that's probably the reason for his heel face turn at the end of the game's story. I'd say that he's misunderstood, but I don't really feel like that's the reason I like him. No. I like him because he is flawed and is implied to go through a lot of crap because of his loyalty to a twisted, broken system.
Basch fon Rosenburg: On the flip-side, Basch also goes through a lot of crap for doing what he thinks he's right. He's an unsurprisingly strong and steady character who (probably, can't assume what I don't know, but this is at least my headcanon) suffers from a lot of inner turmoil because of what has happened to it. EVEN THEN, he still manages to forgive and honour Noah's memory after his death? After everything he's gone through, all the betrayal and hurt, that has to mean something. And it really does.
Another, albeit shallow reason I love them both is because they are incredibly hot.
11) One to three characters you relate to (you may reuse answers from #8 if applicable) and why: You mean reuse the answers from #10, right? #8 doesn't seem to have much to do with this subject. At any rate I'd say I relate a lot to Noah/Gabranth. Not the whole betraying my own twin sibling (which I don't have) but being so loyal to someone/something that I don't see I'm being manipulated. It's not exactly a good way of relating to a character, but I'm hoping it'll still apply.
12) The FF game you liked playing least: Dirge of Cerberus. Not only was it especially confusing for me as someone who's never played FFVII (it's fairly hyped and truth be told, I've never really wanted to try it) but the controls were incredibly difficult to master and the whole game just felt... unpolished and not something I enjoyed overall.
13) One to three FF characters you dislike and why:
Hope (FFXIII): Though it's much worse roughly during the first half of the game, I found Hope's character nearly unbearably whiny, especially for the situation the whole party is in. Now, I do like his character design in general, but every time he opened his mouth made me want to skip a cut-scene.
Wakka (FFX): He's too obnoxious and loud and brash for my liking; though useful for some of the underwater battles (namely in the monster arena), he's still a character I found myself never using because ugh.
14) Favorite weapon in a Final Fantasy game (either the name if you liked the name, or a picture if you liked the look of it, or a description if it had awesome stats/abilities):
The Tournesol in XII, mostly because I've spent a good amount of time gathering things to get it I'm not a completionist and don't tend to go for the strongest equipment, either. So it was a novelty for me, and something I remember doing even now, years later.
15) Your favorite Final Fantasy summon (e.g. Ifrit, Carbuncle, Bahamut, etc.): Alexander from FFIX. Why? Because he's a freaking enormously gigantic castle that moves and holy shit, that is just too awesome to ever not feature right atop my favourite list.
16) Your favorite spell/ability/technique that can be learned in a Final Fantasy game (e.g. Esuna, Steal, special finishes/overdrives such as Tifa's Final Heaven limit break, etc.): Zamnato. Because it's a game breaker and can cut bosses aside in one hit. There's nothing else as strong or unbalanced in the games (at least to my knowledge).
17) A Final Fantasy mini-game/sidequest you invested entirely too much time into:Avoiding those freaking 400 lightning bolts in the thunder planes in FFX. Let's just say it took a very long time and even now, I'm not sure the result was worth it. It was even more frustrating than try and achieve a 0:00:00 score in Tidu's chocobo racing, for sure. Maybe collecting the celestial weapons in general should feature here, because in general it was a difficult, annoying task that didn't really seem to pay off in the end, at least not when it came to facing the dark aeons/penance.
18) Your favorite Cid: Truth be told? None. Though I find Cid a very useful airship pilot, I've never really been into the character, or at least, not enough to pick a favourite.
19) Optional: Up to one class you think does not fit you, with reasoning why. I really don't know, though after very briefly glancing over the types, I'd say bard doesn't seem like it fits me. But who knows? I'm not very good at evaluating myself, truth be told!