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The Basics:

Name: Blue
Age: Late teens
Location: The U.S.
Occupation: Student
How did you find out about this community? (Specify usernames if you remember them.) Looking around and stamping-related comms - I think I saw it through keybladerating first. The advertising post was made by breyzyyin.


Personality Questions:

1) List and expand upon your three best traits / strengths. (These should be personality-related, not physical.)

Intelligent/analytical/creative - I can be overanalytical, that or much too literal, but I really, really love mental stimulation and am thoughtful and love the arts in general.

Devoted - I have a little of a short attention span and really can't get into things that don't interest me at all, but give things all I've got when they matter to me, which also applies to people. I'm told I'm genial towards those I warm up to and a marshmallow towards those I really warm up to, and I do my best to make myself a good investment and love spending time with people I'm close to.

Proud - Combine it with the first negative trait listed below and you have what is usually called my worst specific, not-catch-all-for-the-sake-of-conciseness trait, which is perfectionism, but to be honest, a lot of the time I feel like perfectionism and obsessiveness are really potentially good things - everyone says you should try to be the best you could be, so I think part of my mind takes it as shooting for the self-disciplined best.

2) List and expand upon your three worst traits / weaknesses.

Obsessive - I tend to stall nitpicking on things I have to get done because I have to get them just right and focus on the details, sometimes excessively, that or abandon or scrap them entirely; I'm cautious/paranoid and read to much into/generally overthink things, which tends to lead to me being indecisive even over completely trivial things or finding things to worry or get into a mood over; I take being "devoted" too far on some counts, I give anything that matters to me my all and fix on things I feel strongly about, but I can't get into anything I can't get interested in and have a short attention span, and I'm stubborn and opinionated and much as I don't want to admit it I really wasn't told I use high standards everywhere for no reason; and you have the idea. The obsessiveness in some areas does develop into compulsiveness.

Reclusive - I really like privacy and time to myself on the me-side of it and on the others-side tend to feel intimidated or challenged by complete strangers and annoyed and a little smothered by large groups or crowded places, and I'm secretive, even towards people I'm close to depending on what I'm hiding - I'd really just rather not make some things their problem.

Serious - I'm curious, people have said that I actually do have a good sense of humor, and I really do like stimulation, seeing/doing interesting/exciting things, etc., but I also tend to be told that I need to "lighten up", "have fun", "stop being so proper", also etc.

3) Rate yourself on the following traits by putting an 'X' in the box you think fits best. (E.g. if you are slightly more introverted than extroverted, put an 'X' in the second box.) Explain your choice as well.

Introverted [X] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] Extroverted
Explain:
I definitely think having time to myself is relaxing and to an extent freeing, and I'm also definitely initially quiet. I can come off as either shy or aloof depending on my mood and a little hard to approach or read, and I'm too socially awkward and thanks to the perfectionism afraid of embarrassment to be particularly outgoing.

Cheerful [ ] [ ] [ ] [X] [ ] Gloomy
Explain:
I'm told I'm "up in my head", and it probably already comes across a tad by now that I have a negative bent, I can be moody/sensitive and paranoid, and I tend towards melancholy, but try to avoid getting sucked down into depressiveness. If I'm particularly upset, if I listen to an appropriately depressing song or the like, it's intended as catharsis, not stewing, and I'll probably look for things to make me happy.

Reserved [ ] [X] [ ] [ ] [ ] Impulsive
Explain:
"Reserved" is the first word I tend to use to describe my first-impression personality, but presented as an opposite of impulsiveness, I hate making mistakes and try to be cautious, but can be impulsive if I'm spurred to it or just feeling antsy.

Energetic [ ] [ ] [ ] [X] [ ] Calm
Explain:
I can be high-strung, but I try not to start bouncing off the walls however I feel.

Feminine [ ] [ ] [X] [ ] [ ] Masculine/Tomboyish
Explain:
I liked running and playing in the mud with beetles growing up, don't like clothes that don't give me a hole for each of my legs, and feel worse for not trying to be "strong" for others/when it's called for than for not letting others step up and do that for me, but I'm also a little vain or at least like to look good the best I can, happy to please, and told that even if I do come off as a little iffy I'm basically a gentle, sentimental softie. I try not to make a deal of typical gender roles, but even besides that, I can't say I really am particularly masculine or feminine.

Grudge-holding [ ] [X] [ ] [ ] [ ] Forgiving
Explain:
I'm not all that trusting but still try to have the confidence to give others a chance and accordingly try to forgive things, but I can't help but not entirely let go or fail to keep anything that needed to be forgiven in mind.

4) Describe how you typically work in teams. Is it generally a good experience, or do you prefer working by yourself? Do you like to lead and make decisions or do you prefer to let others make decisions so that you can do the legwork? You may find it helpful to give an example of a team you worked on recently and how that went.
I really prefer working alone, partly because I'm finicky and feel the need to have everything done a certain way and would rather monitor the way everything is going. I probably could work comfortably in a team of people I already trusted enough to assume we're all on the same wavelength or knew how everything would fit together with. I also used to tell myself I wasn't particularly heirarchal, but that's probably not really the case - it's more that my brain tends to place people I dislike/distrust below me, people I admire above me, people I like/trust as equals, and set authority figures as disregarded if I don't like the way they're doing things. Everything really depends on context/details - if I think I have any right to or just don't trust/lack patience for anyone else's judgement but my own in a formal group setting, I'll try to take responsibility, but I'm more inclined to follow people I really, really like and/or really, really trust.

5) Spider-Man Decision: If you had to choose between saving two dozen innocent children and saving your best friend/significant other/person closest to you, which would you pick and why? I'd probably be mad at myself the whole way no matter what I actually picked under that sort of pressure, but I can picture myself screaming that I'm sorry and sorta-reflexively rushing to save the person I'm close to and then scramble whether or not there was any time left to save the kids.

6) Your friend has had their feelings hurt and comes to you for consolation. What do you do? Let's say, two days later they come to you again still upset over the same issue. What would you do in that case? At first probably very awkwardly ask if they'd like to do anything and happily spend all day out with them if they'd like to help them get their mind off of it and let them bring the issue up to discuss it on their own terms, and with the information I get validate and reassure them the best I can. In the still-upset-two-days-later situation, ask everything that happened and exactly why they're so hurt about it and from there do my damnedest to analyze and destroy the root of the problem.

7) What interests/hobbies do you have? How do you like to spend your free time? Mixing those two questions, I like writing/reading, drawing, occasionally painting, I'm practicing keyboard and own a guitar though the last time I tried to use it snapped one of the strings and still haven't gotten replacements, music (favorite artists include Tegan and Sara, An Horse, the Smiths, the Drums, the Killers, Foster the People, K's Choice, Billy Talent, Kaki King, Depeche Mode, Garbage, and Moby), video games (favorites here would be Psychonauts, Eternal Darkness, Pokemon, Harvest Moon, Dead Rising, Silent Hill, Paper Mario, and Heavy Rain), watching good crime shows, namely CSI (only really Vegas) and Criminal Minds, cooking, and going for walks.

8) Describe one to three careers you would find ideal, with a little explanation of why it appeals to you.

Writer - Writing is definitely my favorite thing and I've been told it's my major talent ever since I was small everything getting to the point that it feels like what I'm "supposed" to do. It's difficult to make a living off of and I'd be flattering myself much too much telling myself my writing specifically is refined enough for anyone to want to sell, but a few people out there would be bound to enjoy at least some of it at least somewhat and so I suppose it's worth a try, and I'd love to become a professional writer enough to give it a shot at some point.

Cook - Cooking is just fun. I'd definitely refine my way of doing it to make any money off of it, but it's still so interesting, a sort of attempt to bring out the full potential in raw ingredients for not necessarily as psychological an effect as other kinds of art, but a much more visceral and still memorable, hopefully distinct one while nourishing others. Also, a cook controls the quality and contents of the food they make as much as they can. It'd be best for food to be both as healthy and genuinely good-tasting as possible and it would probably be useful to learn and develop how that would be done.

Profiler - Mind you not in a buying-into-TV-glamour sort of way, just for what the job entails itself, trying to analyze/interpret/understand/get inside a to-say-the-least unusual thought pattern. I think psychology is interesting, but as a job, I would feel like something along these lines would be the best way to apply it. I'm a little interested in law enforcement in general, actually, but the easiest jobs to get in it seem like they have a risk of ending up not really doing much.


FF Questions:

9) List one to three favorite Final Fantasy games and why you like them. Sequels/spin-offs/non-numbered/KH/Dissidia games are okay.

IX - It felt more in the middle of a full-fledged, living, breathing fantasy world than the others did to me. Ridiculous as this probably is as a way to put it, it had a magical sort of feel to it, like more fun was had dreaming everything up than in some of the others without destroying the tone.

Crystal Chronicles - It makes me miserable sometimes (I've forgotten how to beat the Moschets gah), but it's addicting. I also like the concepts and handling of the four races and just pain love the Yukes and Lilties.

VII - It's the one everyone remembers/singles out, but it sticks out to me, too, possibly because it's one of the first games I remember my mother playing in front of me. XD I was born into a gamin' family.

10) List one to three of your favorite Final Fantasy characters and why:

The cast is another part of why I liked IX. I liked everyone but Steiner and Amarant when I was a kid, and my stance on those two changed later on. My favorites are Vivi and Freya - it's rather difficult not to like Vivi and Freya is truly badass and truly sympathetic.

As for a third, Cid Highwind. Sometimes funny and sometimes oddly focus-stealing lovable gruff smart one.

11) One to three characters you relate to (you may reuse answers from #8 if applicable) and why:

I almost want to pull Vivi and Freya back in again in a sort of dichotomy. Natch, I don't have it nearly as hard as either of them and I'm a little embarrassed to be citing them since sometimes it's hard to tell whether you like characters so much partly because you relate to them or whether you're trying to relate to them because you like them, so I'd have to not quite sleep on it I s'pose but ponder that one and maybe edit with a better answer. Freya is easiest to elaborate on, at least so far as I want to be tough, useful, and capable of handling myself, but I'd be crushed if I didn't matter to the people I'd have been doing some of that pulling in honor of.

12) The FF game you liked playing least:

X, I think. I didn't dislike it overall, but it just feels like it takes a while to get into compared to the others I can remember.

13) One to three FF characters you dislike and why:

I can't really think of any. There are obviously characters you're supposed to dislike, but the fact that you are supposed to turns it into more of a love-to-hate. Maybe Yuna - considering she's a major character, she just never really sticks out to me.

14) Favorite weapon in a Final Fantasy game (either the name if you liked the name, or a picture if you liked the look of it, or a description if it had awesome stats/abilities): I had to go randomly wandering around on the Final Fantasy wiki to refresh my memory on weapons. Annnd the Wizard Rod stuck out to me. I love the way it looks for some reason, and powerful healing abilities are always a comfort to have on hand.

15) Your favorite Final Fantasy summon (e.g. Ifrit, Carbuncle, Bahamut, etc.): I think Leviathan is my favorite when it comes to aesthetics and Phoenix is when it comes to use ("*summons Instant Sigh o' Relief*")

16) Your favorite spell/ability/technique that can be learned in a Final Fantasy game (e.g. Esuna, Steal, special finishes/overdrives such as Tifa's Final Heaven limit break, etc.): Thundaga. I tend to inexplicably like lightning- (or water-) themed spells in games that have them. The former I s'pose tends to be oddly gratifying and they both tend to be not half bad to look at either.
I also love blue things.

17) A Final Fantasy mini-game/sidequest you invested entirely too much time into: Chocobo racing/breeding in VII. Also a fond memory of when my mom would play. She let me "have" a blue one we called Brock. /really silly reminiscence

18) Your favorite Cid: Cid Highwind without question. He always feels like more his own character to me than the other Cids.

19) Optional: Up to one class you think does not fit you, with reasoning why. Probably thief - they have a tendency to be happy-go-lucky, self-assured, flirtatious, unabashed, gleeful rule-benders, and/or smooth and so on which I can't really say is me.

Comments

[the-cosmos-girl.livejournal.com]

At the first glance, I saw you more as a Black mage (a mixture of Vivi and Lulu like what rayiroth mentioned) but after re-reading your application a couple times, I definitely see you more as a Dragoon :-)

Dragoons like Freya and Fang are passionate, serious, calm and reclusive. I definitely agree with the_404_error that your answers to the comforting friend question and the team work question sounds like something a dragoon would answer.