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The Basics:
Name: Regann
Age: 30
Location: Charlotte NC USA
Occupation: writer
How did you find out about this community? (Specify usernames if you remember them.) mako_lies on dreamwidth
Personality Questions:
1) List and expand upon your three best traits / strengths. (These should be personality-related, not physical.)
+ Intelligent: I'm smart. I know a lot of things and I'm always looking to know more. I learn fast and I grasp things quickly.
+ Dependable: I'm everyone's big sister, even when they're older than me. You need a ride, some help, a shoulder to cry on, someone to walk your dog or water your plants? That would be me. If I make a promise, I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure I keep it.
+ Loyal: I'm not going to turn my back on you if you need me. I'm not going to abandon you when things get tough. Even if you hurt me, it's going to take a lot for me to give up on you.
2) List and expand upon your three worst traits / weaknesses.
- Arrogant: This is the double-edged sword of being intelligent. Sometimes I think just because I know a lot, I know everything or just because I know something, I know best. This is patently false because for everything I know, there's so much more I don't. It's something I'm always working on but sometimes the haughty little know-it-all inside of me comes out and gets all snobby until I have to smack her back down with some common sense.
- Anxious: To say that I worry about everything is not an exaggeration. I often get so overcome with anxiety that I find decision-making difficult because I can't find the option that takes care of everything in one fell swoop. This leads to a lot of second-guessing of decisions I do make, too.
- Resentful: I have a lot of resentment in me both toward people and the world at large. I've been dealt a pretty bad hand on occasion and it rankles, especially when I've made sacrifices to help others and never get any of that help back myself. I know the world's not fair and tons of people have it worse than me, but sometimes it's hard to keep that in perspective.
3) Rate yourself on the following traits by putting an 'X' in the box you think fits best. (E.g. if you are slightly more introverted than extroverted, put an 'X' in the second box.) Explain your choice as well.
Introverted [ ] [ ] [X] [ ] [ ] Extroverted
Explain: I cannot really describe myself more toward either of these extremes because I find both are important to me. My personality is naturally boisterous and sometimes I crave people, places, noise. But other times, I'm just as desperate for silence and the quiet of my own thoughts. It's one place where I really need a true balance.
Cheerful [ ] [X] [ ] [ ] [ ] Gloomy
Explain: Even when I'm miserable, I can usually find the humor in it. I come from a background where you try to stay positive in the face of hardship, so being cheerful is almost a defensive mechanism. Gloominess rarely helps the situation, I've learned.
Reserved [ ] [ ] [ ] [X] [ ] Impulsive
Explain: Reactionary is a good word to describe it. If I start thinking, I'm likely to keep thinking and never doing, so listening to my "gut" and reacting quickly is the only way to keep myself from being mired in process of thinking it out.
Energetic [ ] [ ] [ ] [X] [ ] Calm
Explain: I am definitely not someone who can be described as energetic in a physical sense. I am much more likely to be sitting or still if the opportunity is there. I am definitely unhurried; I prefer to give myself the time and be leisurely about getting from once place to the other instead of rushing.
Feminine [ ] [X] [ ] [ ] [ ] Masculine/Tomboyish
Explain: My clothing style is generally feminine in its presentation. I prefer dresses and skirts, I like jewelry even if I don't always wear it, and make-up even if I rarely wear it. I am aesthetically drawn to colors like pink and purple, earth tones; if I had to name a fashion/style icon I emulate, it would definitely be Stevie Nicks.
Grudge-holding [ ] [X] [ ] [ ] [ ] Forgiving
Explain: Even if I forgive, I don't forget. Ever. And it's being added to my mental tally book and I may bring it up the next time you do something I have to forgive you for.
4) Describe how you typically work in teams. Is it generally a good experience, or do you prefer working by yourself? Do you like to lead and make decisions or do you prefer to let others make decisions so that you can do the legwork? You may find it helpful to give an example of a team you worked on recently and how that went.
I work well with a team but I often worry about others letting me down. I am not leader material because I tend to be indecisive and too conciliatory; I am much more suited to figuring out how to get the task done once the path has been decided on. If I do take the lead, it is usually in the role of a damage-controller, especially if I see something is going off the rails and no one else is stepping up to stop it. I am very committed to accomplishing whatever task is at hand, so I'll do what I need to get that done, even if it means stepping outside of my comfort zone or doing it all myself.
5) Spider-Man Decision: If you had to choose between saving two dozen innocent children and saving your best friend/significant other/person closest to you, which would you pick and why?
There's going to be a ton of angst and regret for me no matter which choice I make, so I would make the most selfish decision and save the person closest to me. In that situation, it boils down to loyalty over heroism. If someone is close to me, there is a tacit promise in our friendship/relationship that we'll take care of each other and be there for one another, which is doubly true if our lives depend on it.
6) Your friend has had their feelings hurt and comes to you for consolation. What do you do? Let's say, two days later they come to you again still upset over the same issue. What would you do in that case?
I would try to comfort them, first of all, and try to mitigate the damage. Did someone tell them they were ugly/dumb/mean? I would come up with counter-examples. If someone was just mean or selfish toward them, I would remind them how much others love them and how that behavior toward them was wrong. If they were still upset a few days later, I would still be looking to comfort, but also to offer advice on some kind of action that might help them move on. Or I would sit down with them and go over why their feelings are still hurt to see if it is something deeper is going on.
7) What interests/hobbies do you have? How do you like to spend your free time?
I read, I write, I cook, and I generally consume as much media as possible. I love to read both fiction and non-fiction, particularly on historical or religious topics. I spend a lot of time day-dreaming which is sometimes more entertaining than what I watch and read.
8) Describe one to three careers you would find ideal, with a little explanation of why it appeals to you.
+ Writer: I currently write for a living and it suits me well. I love to write and I have the speed to get things done on deadline.
+ Teacher: I love to learn and share knowledge with others. There are so many exciting things that I'd like other people to know and by teaching them about it, I can spread that love so that they will do the same.
+ Fortune Teller: Seriously, if I could make a living at reading Tarot or Runes, I would do it. I love working with my decks and seeing what truths I can tease out from them. It's also an amazing way to connect with other people.
FF Questions:
9) List one to three favorite Final Fantasy games and why you like them. Sequels/spin-offs/non-numbered/KH/Dissidia games are okay.
+ FFVIII: This was the first game I played and I fell in love with it. I liked the characters and I found the world to be charming and lovely. I was very intrigued by its mix of technology and fantasy, especially with its emphasis on knights, which felt very medieval. It entertained me as a game for months. Oh, and the graphics blew me away. There were a lot of holes in the story, though, which was a mixed blessing because it lead me to the discovery of fanfiction!
+ FFX: I loved everything about this game from start to finish. The storyline was strong and moving, the world was fully realized as were the characters. The end was so emotionally satisfying, too, which I hadn't found with other games I've played.
10) List one to three of your favorite Final Fantasy characters and why:
+ Quistis: She was first favorite FF character and she hasn't been ousted from that pedestal yet. I liked her no-nonsense attitude, her determination, the glimmer of wicked humor in some of her lines. I liked the fact that she was smart and capable, but not flawless, and that she had a lot of self-reflection. I kept wanting to know more and more about her, even though the game didn't give me much. But I loved what it did give me, and my imagination filled in the rest.
+ Jecht: Oh, Jecht -- his entire character was such a surprise. Even more than Tidus, Jecht's story in FFX is absolutely transformative and so completely integral to everything. He was a deeply flawed man who learned and changed so much that he was willing to sacrifice himself over and over again for Spira. I was charmed by his brash attitude and I slowly fell in love with him as we watched him deal with his issues, accept what life gave him and then turn the world on its head because he was arrogant enough to think he could where so many others had failed.
11) One to three characters you relate to (you may reuse answers from #8 if applicable) and why:
I'm going to repeat and say Quistis. I know what it's like to be the smartest kid in the room for a long time and to let that feeling erode at your self-worth when you're finally out of your depth. Like Quistis, I worry about things and I've been plagued by own self-doubt. I've never been the best at interacting with my peers and find that making those connections are harder than it looks even when you want them so desperately. I know these things about myself and I saw them in Quistis when I played FFVIII.
If I had to branch out, I'd say Cid Highwind. I get his resentment about missing his chance to realize his dream and how that disappointment can turn you into a foul-mouthed jerk.
12) The FF game you liked playing least:
- FFXII: I never made it to Giruvegan. I didn't find the story or the characters very compelling and, even after tens of hours of gameplay, I was never comfortable enough with the battle system to have any confidence in my ability to not die horribly in every boss battle I had to fight. I promised my friend I would play at least that far, but as soon as I fulfilled that promise, I bailed and never looked back.
13) One to three FF characters you dislike and why:
This is a hard question because a lot of characters annoy me but I sometimes find them endearing anyway. Like Squall. He's a moody, broody teenager and I'm forced to sit through all of his angst at gun(blade)point to make it through the game and I can't even take him out of my party for a break! But he's a dork that he grows on me, and I love FFVIII so much that dislike seems a little strong for my feelings for him.
So, a character I actually dislike would be more along the times of a villain like Seymour, who just never seems to die and creeps me out to no end. Really, Seymour, just die, okay?
14) Favorite weapon in a Final Fantasy game (either the name if you liked the name, or a picture if you liked the look of it, or a description if it had awesome stats/abilities):
Yuna's celestial weapon, the Nirvana staff, on all points. The name is pretty, the artwork for the staff is gorgeous, and it kicks major ass once it's fully powered. Break Damage Limit + One Cost MP on a mage character like Yuna who I took completely around the sphere grid was the most awesome thing ever.
15) Your favorite Final Fantasy summon (e.g. Ifrit, Carbuncle, Bahamut, etc.):
Shiva! She's so gorgeous in all her designs even though she changes dramatically from incarnation to incarnation. One of my favorite things about FFX was the ability to control the Aeon as a character and to see each of them with their own set of abilities and skills. I love the way she moves in FFX, it's just perfect for the franchise's ice queen.
16) Your favorite spell/ability/technique that can be learned in a Final Fantasy game (e.g. Esuna, Steal, special finishes/overdrives such as Tifa's Final Heaven limit break, etc.):
Aerith's final limit break, Great Gospel. I love techniques that heal up your party and it does it all -- HP/MP recovery and invincibility. Plus, you've got to work hard to even have it and you only get for a very limited amount of time which makes it even more special.
17) A Final Fantasy mini-game/sidequest you invested entirely too much time into:
Chocobo breeding, bar none. It's so much hard work, definitely something I could only do back when I was in college and had a ton of time on my hands. Between catching and racing and greens and...it's just a lot of work, but I did it twice, on two different game files!
18) Your favorite Cid: Cid Highwind, of course! (Or Captain Smoky, as I liked to rename him.)
19) Optional: Up to one class you think does not fit you, with reasoning why.
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I also see a ton of Dragoon. Loyalty and dependability are traits I associate with Dragoons first and foremost. Some Dragoons can also be anxious or resentful as well. Your cheerfulness and boisterous personality isn't what I think of first when I think of Dragoon characters, but it does fit certain Dragoons like Cid and Fang. I also see some Dragoon in your leadership answer (I think they could also fill the role of emergency damage control, and I can see them worrying about people letting them down too) and in your Spider-Man answer.
I was initially going to say Dragoon, but I think the more I think about it, the more I lean toward Black Mage. But I think you're quite a bit of both!